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Monday, December 13, 2010

She's better off.. but we aren't.

I woke up this morning, just like any other day, got out of bed and played with my kids kissed my wife and left for work for the day. As soon as I started walking down the street it hit me, I really miss my mom..

You see as long as I can remember, every year around Thanksgiving/Christmas time my mom would become the Christmas guru.. Our house would transform into the winter wonderland. She would throw on old Christmas vinyls from names like Nat King Cole, Johnny Mathis, and some of the Rat Pack.. and we would decorate the Christmas tree and make cookies, it would be an all day event. After we had the house all decorated we would end up on the couch and watch whatever Christmas movie was on, with our hot chocolate and cookies by the television.

I really miss those times, you know the times when we weren't fighting, we weren't thinking about the cost of things, or what we needed to do next.. Family is so valuable and I really appreciate the family that I came from. They have taught me that no matter where you are at, no matter who you have become, family will always be there for you.. with love.

So as for the title of this blog.. I was thinking on my walk today about my mom and this thought came to me, "she is better off where she is, but we are not better off without her". She changed everyone's life that was around her, and I believe for the better. So as we will continually miss her, we must remember what she showed us while she was here. To be love and share that love.

Saturday, July 3, 2010

July 3rd 2009.

One year ago today my life changed.. It was a really normal day for me and my family. We were over at a good friends house playing board games and just hanging out listening to stories of an old man's childhood and laughing.

Then my phone rings and as I go to pick it up there is no one on the line.. So I looked and saw it was my brother [in Ohio] it was pretty late there.. So I sent him a text message.. "Are you ok?" he texted back.. "I'm not sure yet".. So I continue to hang out for a little bit.. On our way home I called my brother back and he answers, he's crying, he's not making much sense.. and the next words that came from that phone just ruined me.. He says "Mom has been shot!" I continued to ask questions through disbelief, tears, anger.. I was still in the car at this point so I was trying to just figure out what to do. I can't remember exactly what happend next either my cousin Jason or my uncle Gerry got on the phone and just told me we needed to fly out to Ohio ASAP. When we got back to our house I just started freaking out, trying to figure out who I could call what we needed to do.. I called a few people and a few people showed up to help. After I was trying to figure out flights, pack my stuff up, and get ready to go I came to a place where I couldn't move anymore and I just sat in my closet and started to cry, I was just trying to figure out why this could happen, and really just trying to understand that this is real!.. Wow, so after a little while we packed up a car headed to the airport and then to Ohio.. I didn't sleep at all that night.

As I was going through all of this, the questions, the anger, the frustration, the confusion.. The one thing that I kept coming back to was that I have a God who loves me and my family and no matter what happens he will always be there for us.. The song "How He Loves Us" by John Mark McMillian was playing over and over in my head and I was able to actually play it at my Mom's funeral. This song is just a simple reminder of who God is, and how much he cares for each and every one of us, even though we don't deserve it.

This whole tragic experience totally sucks, but God is good, and he will always be good. It sucks that there are people in the world that don't understand or know God's love and that those people have to hurt other people, but that is just the reality of sin. All we can do is learn to love, and learn to experience and know God love. We will all die some day, but how many of us will start to live today.

I love all of you, and I really miss my Mom, and I never thought that she would be taken from us so soon, but I know that she would want us to continue to love life, to share the joy that she most certainly had and to see people the way that God intended.

I know that some people may read this and think that I am a total hippie, but the truth is I just really appreciate what God did for me, my mom, my family, and the world.. He died, so that we can live!

I love you mom, i miss you..
God Bless..

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Follow Jesus.

Here are some images that I created for our new series..

Let me know what you think..

Poll: What has God been showing you in this season?

Monday, June 14, 2010

Fun At the Park.

The other day I was at the park with some friends and decided to take some fun photos, here is the result click here.. I want to start taking more photos and get a little better at what I am doing. So if you would like to go and shoot sometime, or have some photos taken of you.. Let me know.

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Safe Place.

We live in a special place. When is the last time that you’ve said that? These past few months, I've been realizing how special Redding, CA is.. I mean everywhere in this town there is a sense of God’s presence. I was at Starbucks the other day and realized that there were at least five conversations about Jesus and what he is doing. We live in a special place, but I also realize that some of us, my self included, are wasting our time here in the special place.

This is a safe place. This is a place to train and grow in what we are supposed to do for your entire life. If we can’t do it here, why do we think that we can do it somewhere else?

God has been really showing me that we need to be stepping out in faith in the safe places, so that we can conquer the dangerous ones.

I think that Simpson University has a huge opportunity to equip and empower world changers. I think that practicum, and internships, could be so much more than getting people involved in local churches, it may not all be that way that is just my impression, but it could be challenging students to take leadership of something for a semester, or more, and have some thing to look back on and say, “wow! That was hard, but I really feel that I learned something and helped started something that is going to last”.

I am not saying that I have all the answers, in fact, I am not saying that I have any of the answers.. I would like to start a conversation, and hopefully challenge us to think about where we are at, and that we have been placed here on purpose.

Poll: Do you know why God has placed you here at this moment in time?

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Living God's Dreams.

I have been super busy with life lately and have had little time to socialize.. I have been getting lots of work. I have even had to say no to some projects in order to say yes to some bigger ones.

Here is a design that I created using resources from the web, we didn't use this exact design for the series, it was a bit too kidish, but I wanted to share it still..

What going on in your lives that is worth celebrating?

Thursday, December 17, 2009

5 years.

So Bethany and I got married this day five years ago. It was an amazing day, that was a little unorthodox and not ideal for most couples.. but for us it was perfect!. Bethany looked amazing and a lot of our close were there to witness the moment and pray with us afterward. Times were hard back then, and they are still a little hard.. but we are super happy and very excited about the future. We have two kids [Josiah 2yrs. and Promise almost 1mo.] and we love every minute with them. We are busy, but not too busy for each other. God has been so good to us, and the family that we have here in Redding, CA has been so great! Also our family that lives a little ways away have really been there for us too.

My wife Bethany is so amazing! If you don't know her you should get to know her.. She is beautiful, she is a great mom, and an amazing wife!. She is so chill and calm, perfect for me.. She is my best and closest friend. I love doing life with her.. I love you babe! XxOo..

God, I thank you for such an amazing family. I pray that we just continue to grow closer to each other and to you. Thanks for the years of joy that you have given us.. Amen.